Will you be my Last Man Standing? My last first love. Will you? Please. Because the day I fell for you, I had made myself a quiet promise that you would be the one. The One for me. And after you, no man would lure me ever, an inch away from where I am. And I was right in your arms. Thinking of you all the time. Kissing castles in the air, making dreams with you. Bum bum! I had asked all those forces of destiny, if they exist, to give you to me. Thrown a couple of coins. I wanted you, and wanted me to belong to you even more. I envy that surety. I doubt I could have it again in life. The dire intensity of the craving, makes me gasp for my breath even now. I had never wanted anything like that. Hadn't the courage to. Don't know what was with you though.
But now things have changed, and as they say "There is no point in it." Hanging on to illusions, supposing them to be truths, wanting them to be truths. There is no point in it. So, for one last time, I have one thing to ask of you.
Will you be my Last Man Standing? The last one I ever loved. Will you leave memories and pain so strong that I would never incline towards the candy-floss fantasies of love. Will you? Please! Let this be my parting gift. Last so long in my heart as is needed to make love an impossibility. Help me hold that quiet promise I made to myself when you happened. This would mean the most to me.
Be my Last Man Standing. You will, wouldn't you!
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